I have been thinking about you a lot lately, and that usually means I am missing you more so than usual. Every little (or huge) reminder of your constant presence never ceases to bring me back. It is truly amazing how much you are still touching my life. I would not be the person I am now without you. You have turned my life into an ever-shining bliss of happiness and sunshine. You continue to inspire me to always be encouraging towards others. In fact, I am now a Beachbody Coach helping and empowering others to find health and fitness–something that I never would have had the courage to pursue if it was not for your encouraging voice in the back of my mind throughout the process. I want to help people just like you have/are helping me: that is to be the best version of myself no matter what, to always challenge myself in order to grow and to constantly strive to live life with heart, health and happiness.
Recently, I have been too wrapped up in bringing light to others’ lives (which is amazing), but I only say “too wrapped up” because I started to settle back into my “comfort” zone again–not like before thank goodness, but enough to become a little too stressed and anxious like the old Emily (you know the one). However, you saw this before I did and you intervened ASAP. This may sound silly to others, but you know exactly what I am talking about. You tricky trickster. Last night at my cooking class training, I met the CSU’s “new” nutritionist–Kelsey. I could not believe it! Especially when she said she was teaching cycling again at the Rec. When I heard this I knew. I knew this was you reaching out to me. It took everything in me to not bust out cry-laughing, but I managed not to (unlike now…) You knew I needed this push because the truth is, I have not stepped into that cycling studio since you left. I could not even imagine what would happen when I sat down next to your bike…
Regardless of my fears, I took your challenge. This morning, I got up at 5:30 am and headed to Kelsey’s cycling class. At first, it was a little overwhelming, but as class started, I felt stronger–physically from Kelsey’s crazy good cardio class of course, but also emotionally. I overcame this emotional challenge of being in that studio–a place where our friendship really grew every Tuesday/Thursday at 7 am freshman and sophomore year. It was good to be back, Jess. I cannot thank you enough once again. You inspire me, you encourage me and you challenge me every day to be a better human being. No one else may understand or see the value of this victory, but to me, it is another page turned in the story of my “Journey for Jessi.”
love you always,